Rainbow

Last Friday (1/7/11) Nat and I were leaving the grocery store; the weather had been threatening all day, dark, grey clouds, hanging low and ominous, but no rain had come yet, and there was the most beautiful full rainbow in the sky right in front of us. While we have had the wonderful privilege of seeing rainbows before, they are always so special and this was no different.  We loaded the car and headed north on Hixson Pike for home.  Hixson Pike makes a pretty significant turn in direction between Publix and our house and as we were headed more northbound, the rainbow was first to our left and then directly in front of us -- and I do mean DIRECTLY IN FRONT OF US!

As we continued on, we realized that we could see the end of the rainbow on the street ahead of us -- and, yes, we certainly were looking for the leprechaun and pot of gold!











We then realized we were going to drive THROUGH the rainbow, literally!

It was surreal -- because as we got closer and closer, of course the rainbow disappeared.

And you can't turn around and see it behind you either!

It was a unforgettable experience we shared, one that I will cherish always.

Life transitions

Just got home from Savannah -- left my girl there.

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She's going to one awesome art school that is tailor made for her and her talents and nature and learning style.


She has the opportunity to thrive in a beautiful, diverse, yet comfortingly southern city.


She is adjusting to being away and living with a roommate she just met the day of move in.


She is doing great.


Me...not so much.


Huge life moment. Lots and lots and lots of memories. She was a baby just the other day, wearing her daddy's tie and my high heels.


She was "too little to ride the school bus.


She just came and told me "Mommy, I don't want you to freak out....,(freak out start in progress......but I just started my period." freak out aborted.... inward sigh and giggle.

We watch Food TVafter school and take a nap in the late afternoon sun.

We talk when she gets home late at night when her daddy is already in bed.

I know she is not gone forever. 

I KNOW that it's only a short nine weeks before she's home again. 

I KNOW she's not *that* far away. 

I KNOW that I haven't lost my little girl. I KNOW!!!!

But, our lives have changed, we have come to a transition time of our lives, and while that IS A GOOD THING, it is a different thing and my heart hurts. 

Because what was will never be again. 

What will be has all the possibilities, potential and wonder of the new. What was was wonderful, blessed, cherished (even in the less than stellar times) and unique. And will not be again. That is what I am feeling the loss of.  

It hurts really, really, really, really bad.

What I KNOW and what I FEEL are not compatible at all.

Mommys & Daddys, those babies grow up really, really, really fast. Hug your girls for me, please. Kiss them as they sleep every chance you get.

I'll be okay, I promise. I know who holds me and Nat.

I will be fine.

But not just yet.

Right now I just want my baby home with me.