Today is raining -- again. It's Tuesday -- duh, again. Trying real hard to not let it be a not so good day. Thinking good thoughts, praying good prayers -- prayers that don't ask so much for my own peace and serenity, but that I might be used to bring those things to others. To be the hands and feet. and face.
this i pray.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
a blink of an eye
The life you knew is gone.
Usually these moments are momentous: a sudden death of a loved one; the prognosis of a terrible illness; news of life changing portent.
But sometimes these blinks are not as obviously momentous.
Your life can change just as radically though.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Friday, October 2, 2009
Three weeks from anywhere....a geographical oddity, heh?
Three weeks into a new life....
They say that it takes three weeks to a make habit a habit.
Three weeks to break a habit, as well.
It evidently takes more than three weeks to make a new life feel right. To find the ebb and flow where you can breathe.
I have had at least one child in my daily life for more than 27 years; I guess it's okay that it is taking more than 3 weeks to get to my new destination. A destination where a child doesn't factor, somehow, into my daily life. Wherever, however that destination may look.
I am lonely.
I am trying really hard to keep busy.
I hurt my back.
I have wonderful friends.
I miss my daughter terribly.
I hate housework (translation -- the cleaning like a fiend manner of dealing does not hit me, damnitalltohell).
The rain has returned -- at least for a good bit of today. Supposed to be gone tomorrow and Sunday, and then will be back on Monday.
I go back to work on Monday. Good thing.
The hot, nasty breath of depression is chasing me like the hound from hell.
It's gaining, folks.
The thing is, even if I could get somewhere in three weeks, I have not a clue as to the destination I would like to arrive at.
I'll try to start with that....
....but no promises.
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